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how life sounds like with anxiety

I think it is easy to say that life with anxiety is hard. I don't remember when I started feeling anxious and from when living with it felt like a burden to me. I feel like anxiety has always been a part of me and from a certain moment, I just started adjusting to it and seeing it as a part of my personality. It doesn't define me, yes, but at the same time it is part of me and I can't do anything about it, besides dealing with that noise. It feels heavy to speak about it sometimes... you can see online people saying that we have to choose our words very carefully because nowadays everybody labels as anxiety every kind of thing. But I ask, is there a real right way to consider anxiety? Because I don't feel like we necessarily need panic attacks or massive consequences, to consider someone's reaction an anxiety reaction, right? As for depression... it can be visible and it cannot be. But they're both depression, right?  I grew up stomaching sentences like "go...

06.11 ☕ tea note

  Tea Note n°2  Good morning ~  it is 9:50am and today's hella freezing cold here. It is raining and the gloomy sky gives me a sense of deep tiredness. It is the perfect weather to just stay on the couch with a cup of tea, a warm blanket and a book or a TV series to enjoy. Spending my time like this feels a bit guilty sometimes. I don't know why, I feel like the anxiety of not being productive gives me a little pressure when it comes to taking my time and spend it in a less active way.  I used to like the sound of the rain and the gloomy weather, now it just gives me a bit of sadness. Maybe one day I will go back to liking it as before...  have a nice day, everybody. Stay safe and warm ~  4:29pm update  I am spending my afternoon studying while sipping a cup of tea and listening to the new album by Dove Cameron. First time listening to it and it is giving me goosebumps. I love her voice and her music style. She's been an artist I know since she was on ...

05.11 ☕ tea note

  Tea Note n°1  It is 9pm here in Italy, I am too tired to do anything and felt like writing was the best thing I could do right now. I am lying in bed with a very cozy playlist in my ears and I was thinking about how hard it is sometimes to go back to the old habits and skills that felt so natural in the old days.  This is not my first writing space, but it is my first writing space if I am thinking about me as a 24-years-old girl. So it is very easy for me to say that the current me is not similar to who I was 6 years ago. We talk about different things, think in a different way and act differently as well. But what it is totally the same is the passion I feel for writing.  I am new in all this blog thing, but at the same time I feel so excited with the idea of sharing my messy thoughts, not just through my personal diary pages, but also in a space where people can interact and share their own thoughts.  Not everything comes at the same pace, but it doesn't me...

Where the mask ends - live review

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While in the middle of a family relationship chaos, let's live review Where the Mask Ends GENRE : historical, drama  |   COUNTRY : China | CAST :  Tian Xiwei, Yan An  currently watching... Believe me or not, this is my first time sharing this type of review, but I also thought that these kind of reviews are a sort of spontaneous chat among friends.  ⭐  a quick note before reading: I remind you this is a live review which means I will be updating my personal thoughts about the series while watching it. I can't assure you there won't be spoilers, so please be careful while reading if you'd like to watch it spoil-free So, here I am. Currently, I'm watching this Chinese historical drama, kindly suggested by my friend, called Where the Mask Ends.  First of all I would like to say that I don't watch many historical series, so this could be easily considered one of my first historical series, at least for the Chinese cinematography.  Episode 1 to 3 : ...

Core memories of my childhood

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CHOREOGRAPHIES, MERMAIDS, AND PLASTIC BRACELETS: MY ULTIMATE NOSTALGIA COLLECTION  ⋆˚࿔ Yesterday, I was listening to one of my nostalgic playlists filled with tons of soundtracks of animated movies and kids tv shows that I used to watch when I was a child. I am an ‘02 liner which means that I have grown up with the Disney Channel era, the Nickelodeon cartoons and all those things that now kids might not even know what they are. Wow, I really feel old now…  cover from TMDB   All those programs really shaped my childhood and remind me of how beautiful it was when I was a kid. I remember creating imaginary worlds and backgrounds with my younger sister right after we watched our afternoon program. Or when we used to sing out loud the opening theme of the majestic old Winx Club  show ( I have always been Bloom, by the way. But I loved Musa so much too! ). It is insanely special to remember the old days when playing outside was the most amazing thing to do to create our ow...

Begins ≠ Youth

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Seven boys, One safe place:  how  Begins ≠ Youth healed me GENRE : life, youth, drama, fantasy  | EPISODES : 12 (1h 8min) | COUNTRY : South Korea | AIRED :    Apr 30, 2024 - May 14, 2024   OVERALL RATING:     5★/5  cover from the IMDb web page As a BTS fan I couldn't miss this one. When I watched it for the first time I didn't imagine how good it would be and how deeply it would have marked me. The main purpose is to follow the imaginary storyline of the BTS album The Most Beautiful Moment in Life,  but I think that besides that specific goal, it surely reaches a wider public with a dramatic and deep story that left me speechless. Not to mention the skills of the actors who I didn't know before this k-drama but started loving and following their works right after it.  SYNOPSIS ⋆˚࿔ The show follows the lives of seven boys navigating their school years and personal growth, each grappling with family obligation, loss, poverty, aband...

The ultimate fictional dinner

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What if your favorite character sits right in front of you?  Imagine you're throwing a dinner party and you get the chance to invite three fictional characters. Who would they be and why?  Yes, I know it is a very random thing to ask, but I was thinking about what kind of people I would like to be surrounded by if I ever had the chance to be with a fictional character. This is actually very funny because delusional life and world creation is one of my favorite activity in the free time. Plus, I felt nostalgic and while going through an old list of "100 questions about me" I found this one and felt like it was cool to talk about it.  This is not easy to answer because I was thinking about what criteria should I use for choosing. If I would give space to my delusional brain I would go for a whole good-looking dinner party - never waste your best chance, ladies! But if it was asked in a deeper way I would give three names: Nihal from an Italian fantasy book series called ...